Dispatch—Issue No. 02

Hello Sweet Soul,

Lately, I've been learning—again—that tending to a dream isn't always about creative breakthroughs and sudden bursts of inspiration.

Sometimes it’s about protecting the soil from erosion when the storms come.

This week, I’ve been stretched thin—work has picked up, finances are asking for attention, and I’m holding many threads at once.

My body is tired.

I'm learning that managing my energy is not separate from my spiritual path—it is the practice.

Between shifts at the bookstore, taking on new responsibilities as Social Media Manager, and cross-training in the café, I’ve been building new internal scaffolding to keep myself upright. That scaffolding includes slower mornings, ritual pauses, and the radical honesty of saying, “I need more time.”

Not everything needs to bloom at once.

Because of this, I’ve had to create new support structures for myself:

• Energetic time management tools

• Gentler expectations

• Less judgement and pressure

• More intentional pauses between movements both physically and creatively

• Daily energy level menus to choose from depending on my energy level and if I’m working or off at the bookstore.

It’s humbling.
It’s tiring.
But it’s honest work—and honest work is still sacred.

What’s Taking Flight

Lesson I of the Living Curriculum is now live.
Module 1: Somatic Practice begins with Introduction to Somatic Awareness.
This first lesson is a soft call home to the body.
🜃 Begin Week 1 → Introduction to Somatic Awareness

The Eleutheromania Podcast returns with Gene Key 1: Entropy to Syntropy.
This week’s Gene Key touches something tender — the ache behind our cravings and the gift waiting inside stillness.

You can listen wherever podcasts play or click here to follow along.

Project Void (the book I’m writing) continues to whisper to me about freedom, even when my body feels heavy with the weight of responsibility.

Currently reading:
Great Big Beautiful Life by Emily Henry. And I swear, if they don’t end up together...

Also:

• I’ve officially lost over 25 pounds on my weight loss journey (!!!)

• I’m in a total music slump — send me your go-to songs, please?

Field Notes—A Reflection for You

If you find yourself stretched thin right now, remember:

• You are still worthy of your own softness.

• You are still an artist even when you're tired.

• You are still tending something beautiful even if you can't see its bloom yet.

Maybe, this week, the work is simply to stay with yourself.

A Bonus Storytime—Divine Intervention

I got off of work from the bookstore today at 1:30 p.m.—once I got home, I got cozy, listened to a bit of my audiobook, ate, worked a little on the backend HTML coding of the websites and decided to DoorDash.

As I was coming back home from an order, I decided to go home because it had gotten really slow when I felt someone looking at me. I ignored this feeling until I heard their horn beep, and I looked over, trying to figure out what was wrong and who it was.

I won’t give any names for the sake of privacy, but it was a guy I had been talking to recently. One that I still have love and feelings for, and it was so odd that we were on the highway side by side because he lives about an hour away from me.

What are the odds?

I ended things because I knew I didn’t want kids, and I knew he did, and I didn’t want him to sacrifice that desire for me.

I called him once I realized it was him beside me on the highway (it took me a moment), and we decided to go sit and have coffee—he isn’t one who likes to remain friends after breaking things off romantically which I respect, but was hard—so, seeing him was so refreshing.

Ironically enough we talked about our love lives and how they’ve changed, caught up on what was new, and it ended up being the most beautiful soul filled conversation that I’ve had in a long time.

It was so tender, and tears were shed, not out of sadness, but from that special place of care for someone so much so that you just want them to be happy—the special place of caring about someone so much you can’t bear to be selfish with them.

He spoke with me about some heavy relationship things which I won’t disclose, and I found myself, a woman, still with feelings for the person sitting across from me—not jealous, or sad but wanting to offer the most heartfelt wisdom I could, and all of this to say—it was an undeniably special moment.

I’m so thankful that the stars aligned for us to have a heart filled cosmic conversation—to be able to be in the presence of such a beautiful soul.

The main things that stood out in our conversation is the desire we both have for one another to be happy—that love is like sand and should be held with an open hand, that one doesn’t have to hold so tightly to it for it to remain—and lastly, the John Green quote, “that’s the thing about feelings, they demand to be felt.”

Until Next Time

The dream is unfolding in the quiet—not in spite of the chaos, but inside it.

Thank you for reading, witnessing, and walking this path with me.

With so much love,
Kayla S. Graham
Steward of Story, Spirit and Soil

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